Day 111
Today I’m supposed to be mean to my boyfriend and see if that makes him love me more.
So I try. I’m as mean as I can be, but I’m really just a nice person.
I ignore some of his texts. Not all because I do like talking to him.
I go out shopping with Lanie so that I’m a little more unreachable to him. (plus because I haven’t seen Lanie in forever and it’s fun to hang out with her.)
I learn today that Mike doesn’t actually have internet while he’s on vacation, so I won’t talk to him to much. I’m a little nicer to him after that.
I’m nice in a different way though. I’m telling him that I love him and sending him a picture of myself because I want to. It makes me happy to do this for him.
If he were actually here, I’m sure this would be a totally different day. But since he’s not here, I have to deal with it like this.
This is helping me with missing him, actually. I only saw him for the one day, and it’s bizarre and it feels like it didn’t happen, but pretending I don’t care is making me not care. That’s actually kind of nice.
I ask Mike if I was mean to him today and he says yes because I didn’t drive out and spend the day with him.
Okay then, I did accomplish today. Kind of.
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This day would've been easier to do if I actually saw Mike that day.
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